Meet Rita Lussier, an award-winning journalist and writer whose column “For the Moment” was a popular feature of The Providence Journal for 12 years. Her writing has also been featured on National Public Radio, in The Boston Globe, The New York Daily News, Writers’ Digest, Psychology Today and many other publications. Recently, she won first place for her human-interest story in the 2022 Erma Bombeck Writing Competition, an honor she has received three times. Her debut book, And Now, Back to Me, Stories from an Empty Nest was published by She Writes Press.
She lives with her husband Ernie in Jamestown, Rhode Island where she enjoys running, walking and spending time with family and friends.
Book Summary:
What does a mother do when her youngest child leaves home and her perfectly ordered (well, almost) life is suddenly thrown off its tracks leaving her to wonder if she will ever again find that comfortable rhythm, that sense of belonging?
After 27 years of motherhood, Rita Lussier’s youngest child heads to New York City and Rita drives home to what she thinks will be the calm after the storm only to find no comfort, nothing familiar. Welcome to the Great Big Empty Nest! The parenting mission that had infused Rita’s days and nights with so much purpose has abruptly changed leaving her lost and confused, not an ideal state of mind to begin the messy and uncomfortable process of reinventing her life. Rekindling her marriage and friendships. Kickstarting her career. Making difficult choices about her house, finances and future all the while adjusting to the ever-changing demands of growing-up children and aging parents.
And Now, Back to Me invites readers along as Rita recreates nearly every aspect of her life at a time when she thought she’d be kicking back to enjoy it. As a columnist for The Providence Journal, it was precisely these types of personal glimpses that endeared readers to her column making it a popular feature of the newspaper for a dozen years. In her book, Rita shares her experiences with the issues that not only confront her at this crossroads, but millions of parents as well.
“A mother adjusts to an empty nest in this touching memoir of love, transformation and self-discovery.”—Kirkus Reviews
“Rita Lussier’s And Now, Back to Me is a loving, heartfelt journey of the empty nest: marriage, kids, career, aging parents, and the warm embrace of community.”—Matt Bombeck, writer and son of Erma Bombeck
“As someone who recently became an empty nester and is approaching retirement, I so appreciated reading about Rita’s journey through this challenging but invigorating time of life. Rita shows us how responsibilities will change, relationships will shift, and opportunities will emerge, and she points out that we need to be prepared to be kind to ourselves as we navigate this uncharted territory. So much of what she shares resonates with my own experiences. Her insights helped me to face the future with optimism.”—Cynthia Dawson Bonn, Dean of Admission, The University of Rhode Island
And Now, Back to Me – Excerpt
Four days into my dream job at an advertising agency in Providence, Rhode Island, I discovered what I’d really be doing for the next three decades. The lunchtime appointment would be just a quick walk around the corner to the clinic. The encounter would be awkward. That I knew. But I could endure anything in return for the peace of mind I’d feel once the ordeal was over.
From out of my purse, I took the little jelly jar I’d wrapped in plastic to keep its contents – my first morning urine – from leaking. I lowered my eyes and handed it to the woman at the desk. The transaction seemed common enough. Dozens of young, anxious women came here every day. I was just another name on the appointment list. That’s what I told myself as I sat in the waiting room, apprehensively thumbing through an old issue of People.
I was not alone. A young woman wrapped in a sweater sat on the other side of the table where the magazines fanned out in a spread of unlikely distractions. She looked over and smiled. “This is my third time. Hopefully it’s a charm.”
I managed a weak nod. Then they called my name. I walked into the inner office and stood in front of another woman behind another desk, shifting back and forth in my new suit and heels until she motioned for me to sit in one of the wooden chairs. I stared at the clock on the wall, noting I’d be late returning to work.
And then, there it was. Just like that. The news rumbled out of her mouth like rolling thunder: Pregnant!
In that one short moment, my life divided into two distinct parts. The first, when nearly everything was about me. The second, when almost nothing was. I wasn’t ready.
Two kids, two marriages, and more than two career changes later, just as that first visit to the clinic had ushered in sudden and unforeseeable change, another moment would ring in yet another transition for me. This time, however, I knew it was coming.
As it turned out, I didn’t anticipate Hurricane Irene, the power outage, the last-minute packing by flashlight, the anything-that-didn’t-need-to-be-heated dinner of leftover pizza and Cheerios, all adding to the tension my husband, Ernie, and I were already feeling the night before driving our youngest child, Meredith, to New York University for the first time. But the next morning, the skies brightened, and we climbed into our car as planned, jammed to the hilt with boxes, bags and nervous excitement.
On the sidewalk in front of her dorm, the day had turned sunny, with a few fallen branches on Twelfth Street the only evidence of a storm. But the morning was anything but quiet. Students in bright blue T-shirts rolled big carts in every direction, talking and laughing as they greeted freshmen and their families, helping to unload all their belongings and ushering them into their new residence.
Once inside Room 3C, we met Meredith’s roommate and her mother, the two of them busy unpacking and organizing. We pitched in, making beds and new acquaintances until a knock on the door summoned the two freshmen to a welcome-to-the-dorm meeting. After a few hugs, while we moms held back more than a few tears, our girls took off chattering down the hallway, leaving us with nothing to do but walk away.
Ernie reached over and took my hand as we made our way to the parking garage and the 180 miles or so of highway that seemed so different than it had just a few hours before.
“Everything went well,” I said as we settled into our car and headed north toward our home in Jamestown, Rhode Island.
“Her roommate was nice,” Ernie said.
“Meredith seemed happy.”
“Hope we hear from her later.”
“Me, too.”
As the miles rolled on, the conversation drifted off. Maybe all the packing and the unpacking, the storm and the uncertainty had taken their toll. Maybe we were tired. Or maybe we just didn’t know what to say after our youngest child was no longer tethered to our day-to-day comings and goings; her orbit suddenly ripped free from our watchful eyes. The silence between us was unexpected, but after all, this was uncharted territory. Not to worry. We’d figure it all out once we got home to what some might call an empty nest.
Some. But not me.
I open the door and realize our home is not empty after all. I am here. Ernie is here. So is our faithful, albeit somewhat crazy, black Labrador, Lizzie. And although I suspect it will take me – and us – a little time and more than a little struggle and introspection to reshape this new life, I hope you’ll join us on the next part of our journey.
As it turns out, the woman who couldn’t quite accept the news at the clinic all those years ago, the mother who had no idea that bringing children into the world would bring her out into the world in new and unimaginable ways, the career-focused professional who never imagined that raising kids would also raise her consciousness — that woman is capable of yet another monumental and wondrous shift in her life. At least, I think I am.
And now, back to me.
